I’m going to cry the entire weekend
I ended up crying myself to sleep last night because I realized I don’t always give 100% honesty, not even to myself. It’s nothing bad, it’s just sometimes I leave out saying things like if something makes me happy or if I’m sad about something, because I feel like it’d be too much or it would hurt someone, even when it comes to little harmless things. But, bottling any little happiness or sadness up tends to hurt me twice as much as what I will project will hurt others.
Maybe instead of aiming to be a lion, I should work on being a brave little deer.
I can’t do this anymore
I can’t keep making myself feel okay about my situation
I love my mom and and I love my brother I just can’t deal with all the poisonous people that keep coming back into our lives I can’t I can’t I want to do something so self destructive because if they aren’t leaving I want to
I don’t fucking get it why do people let people who’ve hurt them back in yeah love hurts but it’s only supposed to hurt so much there’s a line you have to draw. Yeah it took me a while but I drew that line I said enough is enough I’m not going to set myself on fire for my dad or anyone else anymore, I haven’t gotten to that line with Cathy but I don’t understand why people cross far above their line I don’t it hurts too much to be beyond that line it fucked me up for a good deal of my life to be beyond that line and it hurts seeing my mom and friends being beyond that line and I’m sick of hearing about and seeing the people who took them there I don’t get it I don’t I don’t
Today’s been such a good day I don’t understand why I want to cry
Maybe I should just shut up forever who the fuck cares about my opinion anyway
It’s not like I have the courage to say what I wanna say or cower once I do
You can’t treat people like stray puppies
They aren’t there for you to wait on hand and foot, especially if they’re an adult and contribute nothing to your house.
Or if you feel like you need to “save” someone from themselves. No, they need up off their ass and get professional help if they want it.
If they are manipulative people, they will take advantage of your kindness and expect more than they give. People aren’t stray puppies, they’re humans who are capable of taking care of themselves? People need help sometimes but when their neediness becomes a problem then it’s time to start a critical thinking session as to what they can do to help themselves.
Aughhghg I’m just mad because my cousins ate all the fucking food in our house like we have money to feed them too.
Someone please make it all go away.
People always say to forgive because the person you hate is not who they were before and I’ll be at peace
When change is such an easy thing to undo and I’ve never felt so alive in my life
Maybe I should disappear for a few days.
I don’t even know why I bother going online when it has the power to make me feel ten times worse.
As I thought, I won’t be happy until I tell my mom how I feel about being at home.